PRIDE-or lack of....

Jean2 here again. You might see me as someone with no pride after the recent posts. I do have it. I just use it at the wrong times. I have no pride when it comes to whining and needing help with things as Jean1 has so graciously pointed out. :) However, on a more serious note-pride is a problem in other areas. Not admitting when I am wrong. Not ever apologizing because I feel I would not mean it anyway so what good would it do. Working for what I have and not wanting to rely on anyone to support me because I don't want anyone to tell me I can't buy something. Growing up with a very loving and devoted father-I didn't often hear the word NO! Okay-I never did as Jean1 can attest to. We didn't have much-but what we had-he gave and gave. I knew not to ask for $20 at a time but a dollar here or there-sure!! And I never heard NO! Although sweet of my father (God rest his soul) it didn't prepare me for marriage by any means. I am now on my second marriage and yes I still struggle with pride but not quite as much as during my first. For example, during the course of my first marriage we had plenty of money and I was a stay home mom for a while with one beautiful daughter who still lights up my world! I went shopping, ate out, did basically what I wanted to do when I wanted to do it. Anyway-he always took care of the money and I was fine with that. He also never told me NO until ONE FINE DAY! I simply mentioned I would like to join a fitness center with a friend of mine. He let me know we could not afford it at the time! WHAT?? Are you telling me NO?I just felt he didn't want me to do it which I still feel is the case. Control issues on both parts-perhaps? So-make a long story short-I bit off my nose to spite my face (as Jean1 so nicely told me) because I went out and got a job. I am not PROUD of that. I got a job that worked around his schedule so he could be home with our daughter when I was at work and vice/versa! I lost some special time with my daughter and I do have some regrets. However, things have worked out for the best in all areas at this point in my life....pride cometh before a fall. I agree. My new DH loves me and is patient with this part of my personality. He respects the fact that I work although he does not require me to. I now have a job I truly love and worked hard for...as I mentioned before...teaching. Jean1 and I have discussed my pride issues over and over....to the point of causing her ANOTHER of her famous headaches. She often jokingly says when I don't get my way-how I handle it..."Oh yeah-I'LL SHOW YOU." And I usually go and do something that causes my life more distress just to make a point. One of these days... I might learn. But is it okay to be proud of your pride?hmmmmmm.....take it from here Jean1!:)