GUILT-the wasted emotion

Jean2 here again discussing another issue I have in life. Everyone should blog-this is healthy. It beats paying to lay on a couch and telling some stranger how your parents messed you up for life. Although I always wanted to be psychologist. I love to hear other people's views on life and what makes them think the way they do or rather what circumstances brought them to the point they are now at in their life! Truly fascinates me! Now on to the next issue-GUILT! We all feel it at times-especially if you are a parent. I for one suffer from a chronic case of it at times. I have this picture of what a good wife and mother should be like and I have never lived up to it what I thought that picture was-REALITY takes over. I have tried at different times in my life and it just wasn't me. I WANT to get up and cook breakfast for my DH before he goes to work and visit with him over a cup of coffee before he leaves with a kiss and a lunch I packed. I WANT to have my children wake up to breakfast on the table with a glass of orange juice and milk beside their plate. I WANT fresh flowers in my house every day on my varnished table. And I WANT to have cookies or muffins waiting for my darling children when they come home from school however I am with them when they come home from schoool. I WANT to have dinner on the table every night at 6:00 in actual serving dishes where my family doesn't have to scoop their meal out of a pan or box. These are things I wanted as a child and had SOME of it. I have learned to let these things go. I do the best I can with what I have. Since I do suffer from OCD to a certain extent-the house is clean and things are put away. I always go to bed at night feeling somewhat guilty about something. As women, we all want to be good wives, mothers, daughters, sisters, teachers and friends. My DH is great about not EXPECTING anything from me-which in turn often makes me feel more guilty. I do expect things from him and he fulfills most of those-bless his heart. Double standards and expectations-I will have to discuss those issues in my next blog. Jean1 could go on and on about that....hehe So-what is guilt? Jean1 has told me it is a wasted emotion and I could not agree more. What good does it do us? BE DONE WITH GUILT and go to bed knowing you did the best you could-and if you didn't-do the best you can the next day. Like right now-I should be preparing a nice lunch for my children instead of blogging. But-then I think-what about me?? Vicious cycle I let myself live!!