FUNKS!

Jean2 here and here is your warning-a depressed blogger today. Every once in a while I get in this FUNK. I won't say it is depression-I refuse to yield to that. I am queen of saying BUCK UP to people who even think they are depressed. Who has the time? I NEED those words used on me today. I don't know exactly why this FUNK comes -but it does. I cannot blame it on PMS-this is not the time. I spent yesterday with Jean1 and she made the comment I was not myself. And I did have a good day-but I didn't feel GREAT about anything. Life is good. I have no big complaints there. I have recently suffered the loss of my father which has hurt me deeply and I haven't mentioned in my blog because my intent was to keep it lighthearted. But life isn't always lighthearted. I am not claiming the FUNK is about my dad. I have had a lot of love and support to help me through this tough time. This FUNK has been in my life since as far back as I can remember. I also won't allow myself to be bored or rely on anyone to make me happy. Yet-today I need someone to make me happy!LOL And quelch the boredom I feel. Remember-only boring people get bored. That is my favorite saying to my girls who I expect to act WAY BETTER THAN ME -I don't like leading by example. I am not good at that. I am not ready to go back to teaching although that is coming up WAY TOO FAST. I normally would love a day to myself-just sit back and watch a soap opera, read a book or BLOG! So-what to do today? There are many people whom I could have lunch with but am I good company? Perhaps not. I would like to mention that Jean1 was suppose to come down here today but her DH ended up having the day off....so there ya go! I would love to blame her for this FUNK but I am not allowed to rely on other people to make me happy. hehe I am suppose to play softball tonight which helps with the FUNK-but looks like rain. I love rain too. Thunderstorms excite me. So the weather should only be helping me right now. I am just going to go against everything I believe in and blame this FUNK on Jean1-what do you think of that Jean1?? Stay tuned for my next blog...it will be about REJECTION AND EXPECTATIONS....hmmmmmmmmmm....