CORE PERSONALITIES

Jean2 here again. We all know that there are different personalities in life. I believe our personality is formed at a young age. Sure circumstances in our lives can help change us but our CORE personality is always there. Part of my core is SELFISH and a TAKER! This is why motherhood is not always easy. When I was pregnant (unplanned pregnancy at 21 and yes I was married) I was devastated. Sick all the time. Didn't want to be pregnant and dreaded it with my whole being. I owned one maternity shirt because my mom bought it and made me wear it to my baby shower. My sister made me buy baby things ahead of time. FORCED is more like it. I was for sure those maternal instincts would not kick in like everyone kept telling me they would. I always knew I was different than most people and believed differently about a lot of things! However....GOOD NEWS! Maternal instincts did kick in-I fell in love with my daughter. I love her with my whole being-I truly do. I honestly believe she is a work of art. I just stare at her sometimes. I am a mushy and loving mother FOR THE MOST PART ( and I have serious MAMA CLAWS)! But remember the core...yes it is still there. Jean1 doesn't have this issue so much because she has always been a GIVER! I am attracted to GIVERS-why wouldn't I be? I treat my family and friends well and I am loyal. But the bottom line is I am a taker. My DH knows this because guess what -HE IS A GIVER! I do things for people-don't get me wrong. And it is better to give than receive-I get that -I do find enjoyment and a sense of peace in giving. But sometimes I am that helpless little girl who just needs someone to hold my hand through things. Jean1 has always been that kind of friend. She always braided my hair in HS before my softball games. I didn't appreciate it then but I do now. She was visiting my house the other day and my daughter was on her way to cheerleading practice. What does Jean1 do? Ask my precious J if she could braid her hair for her? So she did. What a GIVER! I appreciate that about her. And trust me she doesn't let me take advantage of her-she draws the line-way to many times if you ask me but she does. But you must hear this about her...she was in labor with bloglet # 2. I was at the hospital on my way to work. I liked my hair braided for work. It was REALLY long then. So-I told her I didn't appreciate her getting out of her duty to braid my hair. Guess what she did? YEP! She did it. She braided my hair for work. Easier than listening to me whine-she says. After all-the epidural (I think spelled correctly) had kicked in. No biggie-right? That is just the kind of person she is. I don't like to take advantage of it -I really don't. But I do know that I can rely on her in times of crisis. Like technology!! That is a crisis. I just want all the GIVERS out there that read this to know WE TAKERS do love and appreciate you in life. I will have more to say on this topic in future blogs-trust me. Stay tuned and I am sure Jean1 will have a few things to say....hmmmmmmmm....I can't wait. I just finished a softball game and I would have appreciated my hair braided.....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm